there in your journey
you keep going and growing
like the sunset sky.
i love sunset sky.
dalam perjalanan yang akan tidak dijalani berseorangan, yang terpenting adalah menyepakatkan tujuan. sama ada tujuan yang ingin dituju itu adalah destinasi fizikal, destinasi fikiran atau destinasi perasaan. kesepakatan tujuan membawa dua pasang langkah kaki yang mungkin melalui jalanan yang berbeza tapi menuju destinasi yang sama, bukan dua pasang langkah kaki yang mungkin melalui jalanan yang sama tapi menuju destinasi yang berbeza.
dalam perjalanan yang akan tidak dijalani berseorangan, yang terpenting adalah menyepakatkan tujuan. doa yang dihantar kepada Tuhan selepas kesepakatan itu tidak lagi "ya Allah, bimbinglah aku di perjalanan ini." tapi doanya bernada serentak, "ya Allah, bimbinglah kami di perjalanan ini." kesepakatan tujuan mengubah kata ganti nama diri, aku atau dia kepada kami dan kita. kesepakatan tujuan mengubah kata penghubung dalam setiap usaha yang membersamai doa, semuanya tidak lagi aku atau dia, tapi kami dan kita. kesepakatan tujuan membina kepercayaan dan kerjasama.
kesepakatan adalah separuh daripada kemenangan dan permulaan penting kepada perjuangan bersama dalam perjalanan menuju tujuan. terima kasih kerana sudi bersepakat dan saling terus berjuang dalam perjalanan ini.
"how to have a better understanding?"on what?""emm, life in general maybe?""learn how to read between the lines.""else?""look for the little tiniest detail in everything.""then how to appreciate?""what?""life in general?""same.""same?""yes.""how?""try to look for the real or hidden meaning behind the superficial appearance of something. and those little things, those little moments; they aren't little."
"nak, iqamat boleh?"
“try to imagine a life without timekeeping. you probably can’t. you know the month, the year, the day of the week. there is a clock on your wall or the dashboard of your car. you have a schedule, a calendar, a time for dinner or a movie. yet all around you, timekeeping is ignored. birds are not late. a cat does not check its watch. deer do not fret over passing birthdays. man alone measures time. man alone chimes the hour. and, because of this, man alone suffers a paralyzing fear that no other creature endures. a fear of time running out.”
--mitch albom; the time keeper.
if anyone ask you about the weather forecast today, will you objectively tell them the expected degree celcius or will you tell them what best to enjoy today- whether to go for a walk at the park under the sun or to enjoy subtle moments in a chilly public library as rain falls hard outside? you've done this a hundred times- looking back- but your past still hasn't changed, isn't it? don't you want to try looking forward for once? the scenery ahead looks brighter and refreshing. it is not the length of your words that matter, but the depth. say what you mean and mean what you say. you've traveled a long path and reached a far destination, but what did you records along your journey; your footsteps count, together with all the stumbles and the falls? so, all you have is a numerical data? or did you go beyond numbers and jot down how He is giving you strength in those difficult moments, because you know you're afraid and you don't feel that tough but somehow you still have the courage to stand back up, to keep on fighting? these are the important pages you will flip and read again for your case citation in the future as you progress further in life. yes, of course you know the importance of correctly numbering things in life. but what is more important is how you define the value of everything, where it is not always decided by the numbered bar code tagged on them. remember this, not everything that counts can be counted. the point of du'a is the conversation- between you and Allah. yes, you've made countless du'a up until now. some of them had already became a script or rather a lyric that you keep on repeating after finishing your daily salah, five times a day. your lips automatically pronounce each and every words in the script, mindlessly. heartlessly. hey, do you even want to conversate with Him? if you really want to get into conversation with Allah, you should focus your mind and put a sincere heart into whatever you want to tell or ask Him, and put ultimate trust that He got your words(even in your silence) and He eventually will reply and guide you.
"and when My servants ask you, [o muhammad], concerning Me - indeed I am near. I respond to the invocation of the supplicant when he calls upon Me. so let them respond to Me [by obedience] and believe in Me that they may be [rightly] guided." (2:186)
the date is zero seven zero five one nine. workshop day two. the chevrons, forty eight boon lay way, singapore six zero nine nine six one- level three, hall number four. eight thirty am till five pm. done. route option number one, the fastest, one hour and seventeen minutes. head out, walk for twelve minutes, eight hundred and fifty metres to jurong east mrt station. station id: ew-two-four/ns-one. east west line pasir ris. sixteen minutes and eight stops. outram park stop. walk for one minute to outram park mrt station. station id: ne-three. north east line punggol. thirty minutes and fourteen stops. punggol stop. walk for eight minutes, six hundred metres. six forty seven pm expected to reach masjid al-islah, thirty punggol field, singapore eight two two eight one two. maghrib- seven eight pm and isya'- eight nineteen pm. ramadhan day two, third night of taraweeh. quran, rasm uthmani, page number forty eight, juz number three. leave at ten pm. route going back option number one, the fastest, one hour and seventeen minutes. start with walking six hundred metres for eight minutes to punggol mrt station. station id: ne-one-seven. take north east line harbour front. thirty three minutes fifteen stops. harbourfront stop. walk for three minutes to harbourfront station exit b. bus stop id one four one two one. take bus number thirty- boon lay. fourteen minutes eighteen minutes. get down at bus stop opp pasir panjar po, id one six zero seven one. walk for one hundred thirty metres for one minutes to pasir panjang inn, four zero four pasir panjang road, singapore one one eight seven four one. estimated time of arrival is eleven seventeen pm.
so, how to get there?
"to be human is to understand that happiness isn’t a constant. but to be human is to understand that neither is sorrow, or grief, or heartache. to be human is to feel it all, to welcome the lessons that come with the dark days, to welcome the softness that comes from the lightness of what saves you. to be human is to try, with every inch of your patchwork soul, to be proud of who you are. to care. to heal. to be your own home, even on the days you don’t like yourself, even on the days where it doesn’t come naturally. to be human is to grow in the ups, and to grow in the downs. so keep growing. keep growing."
--bianca sparacino; i promise that you are growing, even in the dark.
kalau sekarang hatimu penat, jiwamu lelah dan tubuhmu letih; berdoalah. kalau sekarang perasaanmu tenang, fikiranmu aman dan ragamu lapang; berdoalah. kalau sekarang langit di sana mendung, kelam dan penuh dentuman; berdoalah. kalau sekarang langitmu meriah dengan kelip bintang, sinar matahari dan cahaya bulan; berdoalah. kalau sekarang perjalananmu buntu, masa depanmu kabur dan langkahmu tidak yakin; berdoalah. kalau sekarang urusanmu lancar, pandanganmu jelas dan laluanmu tidak macet; berdoalah. kalau sekarang kau masih mencari jawapan atas soalan-soalanmu yang kelmarin; berdoalah. kalau sekarang pertanyaan-pertanyaanmu sudah pun terjawab; berdoalah. kalau sekarang iman terasa hangat, ibadah masih mudah dan memaknakan istighfar itu ringan; berdoalah. kalau sekarang taqwa terasa sukar, ikhlas semakin pudar dan airmata taubat kian kontang; berdoalah. kalau ketika ini kau mulai ragu apakah kau mendoakan hal yang sepatutnya selama ini; berdoalah. kalau ketika ini kau bahagia kerana merasakan doa-doamu yang lama kau pertahankan mulai terwujud satu persatu; berdoalah.
dan setelah semua itu, jika kau masih punya sedikit ruang dalam tadah tanganmu yang tidak tahu ingin kau isikan dengan apa, apakah boleh jika aku yang menumpang di situ untuk doamu yang baik-baik?
ya, ketika dunia sementara yang penuh dengan ketidaksempurnaan ini saban waktu dikosmetikkan dengan segala khayalan untuk menyempurnakan tampilannya supaya manusia melupakan hakikat keabadian akhirat, kita tidak punya harapan lain selain doa-doa kita kepada Tuhan. mungkin masing-masing di antara kita sedang menanggung dosa peribadi yang sebolehnya ia kekal sebagai urusan rahsia hanya antara diri kita sendiri dengan Tuhan, sehingga kita menemukan jalan keluar daripada kegelapan itu. sungguh, setiap inci dalam bungkusan doa kita terlalu berharga untuk disia-siakan. maka, marilah saling berkongsi ruang kerana entah kiriman doa yang mana yang akan sampai dalam keadaan terbaiknya kepada Tuhan. untuk semuanya dan atas segalanya-- Tuhan Maha Mengetahui sedangkan kita tidak mengetahui.
surah yusuf (surah number 12) is among the most told stories in sunday school culture. but the way it was told, it is so tragic.. it is not told as an exciting things. Allah called it as the best stories(ayah number three). when a muslim teenager or a ten or twelve years old said, "okay.. it is the best stories because Allah said so." then what it's mean is she/he was not convinced. why? because we haven't done enough job in telling the story.
there is another secret ingredient to this too. today, what's the value of a story? entertainment.
but Allah's call it is the best stories. He put this in a contest. this is the best of something, it is number one. now who are the other contender to the story? every novels, every short stories, every movies, every tv shows, every season and every episode of a tv shows, every piece of poetry that may have a piece of story in it, every cartoons, every comic books, every video games that have story line in it, everything.. they're all in one side. and surah yusuf was on the other side.
that's a pretty epic challenge.
you'll not see the value of the story and you'll see that come, on who's gonna give this more ratings than this movie that just came out or that epic saga or whatever else.. right? the problem is one thing, and one fundamental thing only.
the reason why people gravitate towards the story is an entertainment. we go like.. to see a movie cause it is entertaining. you don't sit there with notes. and you don't sit there and "there's life lesson there when he stab a guy" or "the guy kick him in the face.. there's another wisdom to be learnt." you see.. it's an action movie.. watching it like.. it was pretty awesome.. "i've got see that scene again.." there's nothing beyond the entertainment value.
and entertainment is very flailing, in other word it doesn't last. the nature of entertainment is you don't normally get entertained by the same things too many time over and over again. so, if you already seen it, if you already heard it, the next time around you'll not get entertained by this much because you.. the anticipation, the anxiousness of what gonna happen next, the mystery it is all already been solved. you know like.. when you're watching a thriller or mystery movie or something.. they don't solve the puzzle until the very last scene. but since you already known what gonna happen or when your horrible friend, who already told you what gonna happen when the movie starts, "oh thats the killer." and you was like "seriously?" if that's the case then no entertainment for you.
now the quran by necessity, it was repeated a lot. like we're gonna repeat this story a lot. which means the idea, the sentiment, the attitude we have to all stories which is "i already heard this.. i already know what's gonna happen.. so no mystery to me.." it's very natural if we bring that attitude to the story in the quran. it's not unnatural cause.. that's the story.
the change and the appreciation will come when we understand something that Allah bring out at the end of this surah. Allah said, in the story there are emotionally moving lessons(ayah number one hundred eleven). ibrah(in this ayah) comes from ayn ba ra- ma'abarah means to cross water. ibrah also used when you learn a lesson so moving to you that a tear from your eye crosses over. in other word you can't hold the tear anymore. it is that emotionally moving.
Allah said, in the story, if you're paying attention, you gonna find your own story. it's gonna relate so well and it's gonna moved you to tears. that's what He's saying. in another words, when you reading this story it's like you're reading your own story.
i love the story of yusuf a.s particularly. because of the goodness(khair) in it. all those years his father(yaakob a.s) cried, yes? his father almost lost his eyesight and eventually he became blind from crying. but all this time where was yusuf a.s? yusuf a.s was in a prison. he was a child servant. when he got old enough he was thrown into prison. he spent many of his years in jail. so either he served as a servant or he served as a prisoner inmate in jail. not a good life. that's not a good life. but at the end of it all when he interprets the dream of a king, and that dream means that the entire economy is going to collapse in seven years. and people are going to die from starvation, the only one who knows how to handle that crisis was yusuf a.s.
had he not been in jail he would have never helped the king. if yusuf a.s was with his father the whole time that never would have happened. but now yusuf a.s is there to interpret the dream and says "i am the one who can take care of this responsibility." "make me the treasury secretary." "give me the responsibility" when he does that and he take care of it, what happens next? what happens next is thousands if not hundreds of thousands of parents don't have to cry that their children died of starvation. one father cried for several years. but his tears, Allah made them a way of saving thousands of family from crying. because if he didn't save that economy, and he didn't save that crop, the entire land would have been in drought. and people would've died of starvation and war would've happened. all kinds of crisis would've happened.
sometimes the difficulty you go through isn't just better for you, maybe through your difficulty you will become an ongoing charity for so many others. you don't even know. you might not understand today or tomorrow but eventually Allah will reveal why you went through everything you did.
this is confusing. have you ever wonder why patient and patient spelled and pronounced the same? then how to explain the difference in meanings between these two words when they were put in a connected concept situation? like do a doctor always told their patient to be patient? or do someone need to embrace the experience of being a patient to learn how to be patient? or do a patient soul was once a suffering patient in the past, but now healed and activated their self-healing ability? i don't know.
do you know?
"sixty one dollar and ninety three cent sir."
"sorry, do you have panadol?"
"yes. which one? actifast? soluble? or the normal one?"
"seventy dollar and ten cent sir."
"some of the corrugated duct in the beam ran out of position."
"is it? can i see the drawing?"
"here. we measured it from centre to centre."
"how about the corrugated duct diameter?"
"oh ya, they used a bigger size than the originally stated in the drawing."
"i'll check first the starter bar size on the other component."
"hmm.. this one should be no issue bro. they used a bigger diameter to play safe. the corrugated duct likely will move out of position during casting as there are vibrating poker. the dimensional space margin will be bigger with a bigger diameter corrugated duct. so, even if the centroid position of the corrugated duct run out, there is still an enough space for the rebar to goes in. as long as the site can install the component smoothly, there should be no other concerns for this."
"oh, okay. understood."
for you, there will be rainbow after the rain falls today. for you, the sky will be full of stars tonight. for you, the sun will be shining again tomorrow. yes, you deserve them all. and just incase no one said this; you're amazing and wonderful. and if things aren't going well, just believe it will get better. and you will be alright.and i'm here writing this- for you.
"i suspect you tore your meniscus. worry not. nothing serious here. you'll not be warded or need to undergo any surgery."
"so, this is not an a-c-l (anterior cruciate ligament)?"
"no, i don't think so. but anyway, i need an x-ray of your knee."
"and where can i get that?"
"here. take this and pass it to the radiology department. come back here later with the x-ray film."
"we'll half-cast your leg to minimize its movement for protection from any further damage as we'll refer your case to the orthopedic department for further diagnosis and necessary treatment. so, we'll provide you with painkillers and medication lotion you can apply to your knee."
hey, you! yes.. you! hold on to your pen. never let it go again, please. you're doing great. the world needs your words. maybe not for the entire human living in this spherical earthy world, but there is someone somewhere who somehow makes your writing as his/her world; source of light in their darkest hour and the remedy for their wounded soul. and here, now, i want to tell you that your future self could be that someone. there is hope in your present writing that your future self thought he/she had lost it forever.
yes, of course, life is full of ups and downs.
so, just keep writing, okay?