if anyone ask you about the weather forecast today, will you objectively tell them the expected degree celcius or will you tell them what best to enjoy today- whether to go for a walk at the park under the sun or to enjoy subtle moments in a chilly public library as rain falls hard outside? you've done this a hundred times- looking back- but your past still hasn't changed, isn't it? don't you want to try looking forward for once? the scenery ahead looks brighter and refreshing. it is not the length of your words that matter, but the depth. say what you mean and mean what you say. you've traveled a long path and reached a far destination, but what did you records along your journey; your footsteps count, together with all the stumbles and the falls? so, all you have is a numerical data? or did you go beyond numbers and jot down how He is giving you strength in those difficult moments, because you know you're afraid and you don't feel that tough but somehow you still have the courage to stand back up, to keep on fighting? these are the important pages you will flip and read again for your case citation in the future as you progress further in life. yes, of course you know the importance of correctly numbering things in life. but what is more important is how you define the value of everything, where it is not always decided by the numbered bar code tagged on them. remember this, not everything that counts can be counted. the point of du'a is the conversation- between you and Allah. yes, you've made countless du'a up until now. some of them had already became a script or rather a lyric that you keep on repeating after finishing your daily salah, five times a day. your lips automatically pronounce each and every words in the script, mindlessly. heartlessly. hey, do you even want to conversate with Him? if you really want to get into conversation with Allah, you should focus your mind and put a sincere heart into whatever you want to tell or ask Him, and put ultimate trust that He got your words(even in your silence) and He eventually will reply and guide you.
"and when My servants ask you, [o muhammad], concerning Me - indeed I am near. I respond to the invocation of the supplicant when he calls upon Me. so let them respond to Me [by obedience] and believe in Me that they may be [rightly] guided." (2:186)
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*'you'/'your' in the paragraph was written(and read) as i/me/my.